I was just scrolling down the photos in my phone's gallery, and saw this picture. This i clicked in kerela, when i went for my roommate's wedding, this January (yeah she recently got married 😍😍😍). En route to her place, I chanced upon this calm and soothing view.
It's not like i have lots of time to kill but sometimes u have to find out a distraction, u have to keep your brain busy so that u do not get unnecessary thoughts. Yeah i overthink, my brain is always full of thoughts (both positive and negative). I get confused easily while taking a decision, even a small one, like: what to cook or what to wear or should I go to roof or should i watch hindi series or not. Sometimes I find it difficult to converse, i keep on thinking, what to say, how to say, what they will think, how they will react(such a vella person i am 😉). I even plan for my response, if they will say this then I will say that. Its funny but I can imagine the whole conversation, including replies from both ends(weird but only sometimes,not always 😁). U know what, if someone will say something to me in an unexpected manner, I will not be able to reply to them and then i get hurt (as it didn't go according to my script 😆😆)and then again i think of all the possible ways i could have responded and then after a lot of overthinking, i will console my self by saying, i will for sure respond (unko unhi ki bhasha m jawab dena kind of stuff) and prepare myself for the next battle but i don't know how i lose it, the other person always has a response to which i do not have reply and then later i will again think of all the possible responses.
Then to stop this over thinking, i will again think but this time, it's not for outside battle but for the battle of my brain: Is it really worth wasting my time, should I care about the conversation that has not happened yet, do they even care, to which my Great brain replies NO and say "Just Chill PANDU". This picture shows the calmness of nature from outside and battle going on inside (metaphor h yha pe 😂😂😂 ).
It's not like i have lots of time to kill but sometimes u have to find out a distraction, u have to keep your brain busy so that u do not get unnecessary thoughts. Yeah i overthink, my brain is always full of thoughts (both positive and negative). I get confused easily while taking a decision, even a small one, like: what to cook or what to wear or should I go to roof or should i watch hindi series or not. Sometimes I find it difficult to converse, i keep on thinking, what to say, how to say, what they will think, how they will react(such a vella person i am 😉). I even plan for my response, if they will say this then I will say that. Its funny but I can imagine the whole conversation, including replies from both ends(weird but only sometimes,not always 😁). U know what, if someone will say something to me in an unexpected manner, I will not be able to reply to them and then i get hurt (as it didn't go according to my script 😆😆)and then again i think of all the possible ways i could have responded and then after a lot of overthinking, i will console my self by saying, i will for sure respond (unko unhi ki bhasha m jawab dena kind of stuff) and prepare myself for the next battle but i don't know how i lose it, the other person always has a response to which i do not have reply and then later i will again think of all the possible responses.
Then to stop this over thinking, i will again think but this time, it's not for outside battle but for the battle of my brain: Is it really worth wasting my time, should I care about the conversation that has not happened yet, do they even care, to which my Great brain replies NO and say "Just Chill PANDU". This picture shows the calmness of nature from outside and battle going on inside (metaphor h yha pe 😂😂😂 ).
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