Jana anjana sa safar

Ek din jab main saman lekar bazar se ghar aa rahi thi to darwaje ke peeche chupe hue mere bhai ne chilaya :" Dhappa !!!! darr gayi , darr gayi", ye sunke ek sec ke liye to meri heart beat skip hui par usko kha pata chalna tha ki main actually me darr gayi thi. Darr sabko lagta hai, kisiko ko chuhe se , kisko coacroah se, kisko height se, kisiko speed se, kisiko pani se. Bhot sare logo ko chipkali se, bhot se logo ko andhere se. Bhot prakar ke darr hai is duniya me, jo kisi na kisi insan ke dil aur dimag me samaye hue hai. Mujhko har cheez se darr lagta hai (literally har cheez se). Mujhko to unn cheezo se bhi darr lagta hai jisse kisi aur ko nahi lagta. par pehle main aisa nahi bolti thi, agar koi mujhse puchta tha ki kis cheez se darr lagta hai to main jawab deti thi ki bhooto ko chod kar har cheez se, ye sunkar samne wala puchta tha ki bhooto se kyu nahi lagta, to main bolti thi ki lagta hai par agar main sochu uss bare me to. Agar na sochu to raat ko 2 baje bhi akele chatt par ghoom leti hu aur sochlu to logo se bhare kamre me bhi darr lagta hai. 

Hamare campus me ek jagah hai jaha se pura campus dikhta hai aur sahi me view kafi acha hota hai. Waha janne ke liye thodi pahadi types chadhni padti hai. To aise hi ek sham hum 6, 7 logo ne socha ki chalo waha chalte hai. Already thoda late ho gaya tha par koi na kafi log the to kya hi fark padta hai. Hum chalna shuru kiye hi the ki itne me main thak gayi, meri speed ki wajah se sabki speed kam ho gai thi. Badi mushkil se thak thakate hue hum log pohoch gaye. Waha se campus bhot sundar dikh raha tha, kuch dosto ko photography ka shauk bhi tha to wo log photos click karne me lag gaye. Hum logo ne thoda time waha spend kiya aur fir socha ki chalo wapis chalte hai. chadhna mushkil hota hai par utarna nahi to sab apni masti me lage hue the. Hum log adhe raste bhi nahi pohoche ki kafi andhera ho gaya tha, andhera pura nahi par aisa ki kuch dikhai na de. Ek dost ko maja aane laga tha to usne bhooto ki baate shur kar di. Bolta socho agar hum neeche pohoche, aur pohchte hi ehsas ho ki hum firse wai pohoch gaye hai jaha se shuru kiya tha. Ye baat sunte hi mere andar ka thaka hua insan bola, : Main bar bar nahi utarungi, agar aisa hua to agli bar seedha roll ho jaungi aur neeche pohoch jaungi. Meri ye baat sunke mera dost hass pada, bolta ki matlab tumko ye tension nahi hai ki ye kaise hua, kya hua par tumko ye tension hai ki tumko firse utarna padega. Ye baat sunkar sab log hasne lage. Fir kisine kaha ki aisa hua hai kisi movie me. KAfi andhera ho gaya tha, aur andhera bhi ekdum bilkul andhera nahi tha par aisa sa jisse vision blurred ho jaye. Ab mujhe darr lagne laga tha, na idhar dekha na udhar aur apni ankho ka best istamal karte hue sirf aur sirf aage ke raste pe focus kiya. Soch to mai aise rahi thi jaise agar main nahi dekhungi idhar udhar to bhoot bhi mujhko kuch nahi kahega (hahahahaha). Fir thodi der me firse wai dost bola, socho agar tum peeche mud kar dekho aur tumko, tumhari shakal ka koi aata dikhai de to kya karogi??? Arey abhi tak to sirf dhadkan tez honi shuru hui thi par ye baat sunkar to dil aise dhadak raha tha ki thoda aur , to bas seene se bahar hi nikal jaega. Maine iss baat ko unsuna karne ki koshish ki . Baki sabne bhi ye baat majak me taal di par meere ander ek chull bhi to thi, ki ek bar dekh to lu, to maine bhot himmat juta karke apna muhh thoda saa peche ki taraf moda. Kafi andhera hone ki wajah se kuch bhi theek se dikhai nahi de raha tha, par ek ajjeb sa saya peeche se aage ki taraf aata hua dikhai diya. shit!!! meri to wahi jaan nikal gayi. AAaaaaaaa, mai bhot zor se chilai apne dimag me. Socha bolu dosto ko par laga ki ek baar dubara dekhlu kai wahem to nahi aur maine firse mud kar dekhne ki koshish ki to dekha mera ek dost jo sabse peeche tha wo aage aa raha tha, Shit ye dekh kar meri to jan nikal bhi gayi aur bach bhi gayi. Maine apne dost ko itni galiya di ki wo bhi sochne laga ki isko kya ho gaya hai. Ab dusra dost bolta ki tumko itna darrr kyu lag raha hai, hum sab sath hi to hai, agar jyada darr lag raha hai to mera hath pakad lo. Ab to bas bhagwan se yai prarthana kar rahi thi ki "hey bhagwan, hum sab sai salamt hostel pohoch jaye to  apki kripa hogi." Thodi der shant hone ke baad fir maine bola, waise mujhko hanuman chalisa aati hai. Hahahahaha karke sabhi hasne lage. Mera daar bhagane ke chakkar me dost bolta ki hunman chalisa hi kyu? maine bola aati to mujhko durga chalisa bhi hai. Wo bolta arey, itne busy bhagwan ko yaad karogi to wo tumhari help kaise karenege, ye wale bhot busy hai, koi aise bhagwan ji ko dhundo jo thoda free ho to tumhari madad kar sake. Ye sunte hi hum sab hass pade. AB theek to lag raha tha par darr mere dil aur dimag me samaya hua tha. Thodi der me hum hostel pohoch gaye. Pohochne ke baad hum sab bhul gaye aur apne apne kaamo me mast ho gaye.

Kyuki itni mehnat jo ki thi maine, to socha aaj thoda jaldi so jau. Aur mai so gayi, thodi hi der me, maine apne apko uss paahdi ke upar pati hu. Shit !!! Ye kya ho gaya , kaha aa gayi me , yaha kaise poch gayi, abhi to thodi der pehle hostel me thi. Kuch samajh nahi aa rha tha aur jitna darr tab nahi laga usse jyada darr ab lag raha tha. Ek taraf pahadi jungle tha aur dusri taraf, jagali khayi. Jab tak me kuch soch pati aur samajh pati, itni der me mere dil me khayal aaya ki iss jaagh to main apne dosto ke sath aayi thi, wo sab kaha hai? Mai unko idhar udhar djhundne lagi. Kuch na dikhai dene pe meri ankho se aansu behne laage. Itna darr zindagi me kabhi nahi laga tha jitna darr abb lag raha hai. Shit!!! ab main kya karu, mere baukhlaye dimag ne bola, koi nahi, jo bhi hai, jaisa bhi hai, iss situation se nikalne ki koshish karte hai. To itna soch aur samjh kar maine niche utarna shuru kiya, darr ke mare mere paav kapne laage the, gala buri tarah se sukh raha tha, dil ki dhadkan itni tez ki kisiko bhi dur se sunai de jaye. Andhera, sanata, aur ur dur tak koi bhi nahi. Maine ladkhadate hue kisi tarah neeche ki aur jana shuru kiya. Thodi hi dur pohochi thi, to mujhko kuch logo ke hasne, bolne ki awaz sunai di, jaise ki kuch logo ka group ja raha ho. Ye awaz mere liye ek asha ki kiran ki tarah thi, mai shayad yaha akeli nahi hu aur log bhi hai, meri raftar tez ho gayi aur mai jaldi jaldi neeche utarne lagi. Un logo ki awaz aur zor se aane alagi, ab aawaze kuch clear hone lagi thi. Kuch jani pechani awaze thi. Thoda aur kareeb jake dekha to mujhko apna ek dost dikhayi diya jiske sath sham ko hi main yaha par aayi thi. Mai usko zor zor se pukarne lagi. zor zor se awaz dene ke sath sath meri raftar aur tez ho gayi taki mai apne dost ke pass poch saku. Mai itni zor zor se usko awaz de rahi thi par fir bhi sun nahi pa raha tha, to socha thoda aur tez chalu aur uske pass pohoch jau. Mere ladkhadate kadam, dost ke pass pohochne ki aasha, meri awz us tak pochnake ke josh ke sath mai aage badhti gayi. AB mai uske kareeb hi thi aur maine uska naam pukara to usko kuch ehsas to hua, usne peeche mudkar mujhko dekha aur aage ki aur bhagne laga. Usko aise dekhkar mai aur ghbra gayi aur apne apko bebas aur lachar mehsus karne lagi. AB dimag me ye swal tha ki usne mujhko dekh kar bhi undekha kyu kar diya aur merse durr kyu bhagne laga. Ye janne ke chakkar me main aur tzez chanlne lagi, aage aakar dekha ki mera sara group jinke sath me sham ko aayi thi, wo sab hai.  Main ek ek karke sabko puarne lagi par kpi mujhko sun kyu nahi paa raha tha, meri samjh me kuch bhi nahi aaya. Gaur se dekhne pe meri ankhe khuli ki khuli raha gayi, uss group ke beech me ek ladki thi darri hui si jo bilkul meri tarah dikh rahi thi. Ye dekh kar meri ankho se zor zor se aansu behne lagge aur mai apne dosto ka naam uar zor se chilane lagi. Itna bebas aur lachar mehsus kar rahi thi mai apne apko, ki sabke hote hue bhi koi mere sath nahi hai, koi mereko sun nahi paa raha aur nahi koi meri madaad le liye hai. kuch bhi samjh nahi aa raha tha, kya karu , kaha jau, kisse maadad lu, me yaha kaise hu kaun hu, mai sach hu ya wo ladki jo inke sath chl rahi. ye log to sab wai baate kar arhe hai jo sham ko hum log kar rahe the. Iss baat ne to mujhko aur dara diya. BHot chilla chill kar rone lagi, kuch mehsus nahi ho raha tha , aisa lag raha tha mano ki shareer hai hi nahi. Thodi der rone ke baad maine apna hosh sambhala aur socha ki chod in sabko, main jaldi jaldi neeche jati aur iss agah se bhar nikla jati. Main ab daudne lagi thi, mere paisro me ek ajeeb si shakti aa gayi thi. Thodi hi dur pe mujhko bhar ka rsta dikhayi de raha tha, mere chere pe ab ek muskan thi ki chalo jo bhi hua, kuch samjh nahi aya par ab main apne hostel ja sakti hu aur iss jagah se bahar nikal sakti hu. Jaise hi main neeche pochne wali thi to ekdum se mujhko thoda sa chakakar aaya, par main sambhal gayi, socha ki daudne ki wajah se aisa hua, thoda khadi ho jati hu. EK do sec me jab theek laaga, to maine aass pass dekha aur dekhte hi mere hosh udd gaye, chehra peela pad gaya. MAine dekha ki main firse uss pahadi ke upar pohoch gayi hu jaha se maine shuruat ki thi. Ye dekhte hi maine bohot zor se chilaaya : Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Itne me hi mujhko ek dastak sunai di.

Mere room ke darwaze pe dastak hui. Dastak sunte hi meri neend khul gayi. Neend khulte hi maine dekha ki mera takiya pura giila hua hi, meri ankho se aansu nikla rahe hai aur mere dil ki dhadkan kafi tez ho rakhi hai. Uth to mai gayi thi par abhi bhi mai hosh me nahi thi, mera dimag abhi bhi wai soch raha tha aur mere sapne ke sadme me tha. Firse darwaze pe zor se dastak hui, mai aur darr gayi, ab lag raha tha ki kai mere darwaje pe mere jaise dikhne wali ladki to nahi, Mere darwaja kholte hi wo bole, aur aa gayi ahadi se. Ab itna darr lag raha tha, ki bas susu hi nikalne wlaa tha, itne me hi meri ek dost i awaz aayi. Badi himmat karke, khade ho kar maine darwaja khola. Apni dost ko dekh kar me foot foot kar rone lagi. Usko gale lagaya uar zor zor se rone lagi. USko kuch samjh nahi aa rha tha ki kya ho raha hai mere sath, mai kyu itna ro rahi hu. Usne mujhko pyar se puchkarne ke baad pucha, kya hua tereko kyu ro rahi hai, aur thodi der pehle tu baki logo ka naam lekar chilla kyu rahi thi  Mai wash room ja rahi thi to jaate jaate tere chillane ki awaz sunai di to socha puch lu kya hua(mera room washroom se next wala hi tha). Hosh sambhalte hue maine usko apna pura sapna bataya, sunkar wo hassi bhi shuruat me par meri halat dekh kar darr bhi gayi thi. Mereko shant karne ke chakkkar me usne bola ki koi baat nahi, bura sapna tha, dimag me wai sab chal raha tha isiliye tumko ye sapna aaya. Apne apko ko apne kamre me dost ke pass pakar jo sukoon mil raha tha wo mai bayan bhi nahi kar pa rahi. Usne mujhko pani pilaaya aur apne room se e chotu se ganpati ji diye, bola darr lage to inko yaad karlena. 

Uss din ke baad se ab mujhko harr cheez se darr lagta hai, apne aap se bhi.